Who I am...........

This question has been on my mind lately. Who am I? I mean, the obvious is there, of course. It's inherent in the question. I am Serena. I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a homosapien. I am me. This last sentence, this is where the tricky dicky part comes into play. Me. I am all of those things I mentioned, but what else? I am not only a wife. I am not only a mother. I am not only a daughter. I am not only a sister. And I am not only a homosapien.

I am, unique. There are complicated parts of me that combine to make me what I am. I have loves. I have hates. I have extremes. I have flaws. I have perfection.

I'm complicated. I guess that's what it all boils down to. I have an intense distrust of people, in general. It takes a lot to break down my walls. I love intensely, but I also love from a distance. I love myself and I hate myself. Sometimes in the same minute. I hate people, but I am often lonely. I have a profound negative side, which is often tempered by my naivete. I am drawn to things outside of the mainstream. I am afraid of breaking rules. There are days when all I want to do is scream, laugh and cry. All at once. I am a big crybaby. When I cry, I want to be alone, but I want to be hugged. I cannot ask for help. I need more help. I cannot leave things alone. I have to have the answers. Now. And they have to meet my expectations.

I judge. A lot. I assume. I am not completely comfortable in my own skin. I value brains over beauty. I often want to punch people, but I smile anyway. I curse. Constantly. Because it makes me happy. What it boils down to, is there is more beneath the surface. And I love every minute of it.